Thank You Monica I hope you really get this

Dear Monica,

I do not know how to explain what your show did for me as a woman, a mother, a friend and a woman of God. I watched you overcome , inspire, triumph and pull through all the time being nothing more than Monica. Not all prissy and too cute not all diva or fake and I wanted to let you know that currently my four children and I left our home in Az after my husband tried to kill me in front of our children. I have been back home in Detroit MI, for a month now and I feel Like I cannot kill nothing and wont nothing die.

But your words, your show and your love for your family is what made me stand because I believed that my children would be better without me, maybe this world would be better without me. I currently support a 2, 1,5,and 9 year old off of 800.00 a month and my car note is 400.00 and my insurance is 123.00 I was doing very well until my vans transmission went out and its going to cost me 2200 to fix. My children and I (all five of us )catch the bus in the morning to drop off my five and nine year old at school in the cold here in Detroit which is only 2 miles away but the journey now takes 40 minutes…
I don’t have a stroller and my 2 year old doesn’t even have a winter coat or boots… But we’re still standing…
Then to make matter worse we just came here to visit for Christmas only to find that my landlord evicted me from the home that I lived in before I moved here. So I am now living with my brother who is a bachelor and never had four children and he is so mean when ever my children do anything he’s complaining and then he makes me feel like I am really putting him out now I feel like I am putting him out so he complains every single day no matter what. But I am still Standing..

I have no help but I watched your show and you were at the college and you spoke to them and told your story I wrote something inspired by your Song/Show Title
I am still standing and I wanted you to read it because even though the road is rough I am still standing and knowing how good that feels keeps me. I watched your show faithfully and get my inspiration for the week.

So even though you may not know it you have forever changed me I am 34 years old no home, no car, no husband, no job. But Guess what I’M STILL STANDING because still standing is more than a word posture or stance it’s a conviction, confession, declaration and mental disposition so thank you for being real and helping me know that I am not alone… and I am still Standing and you are too.

Replies (5)

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Wow, Monica...I wanted to tell you how your show has really really touched my heart and has given me sooooo much inspiration. But I see so many other beautiful strong women have beat me to it. As I read the other posts here, it comforts me to see that I'm not alone in this struggle. This journey has not been easy for me either, but You have given me hope that I thought I had lost. You Monica are a blessing to us all. I want you to really feel what I'm telling you in my words that are coming from my heart. I just want to Thank You for your strength, for your beautiful beautiful voice and for being so true. I too have lost hope, have lost my self esteem have lost my way. I hated myself for my short comings but you are proof that God will never leave you and that we all have our journey to go through. It gets hard and people can be so mean. But your spirit shows me that everyone isnt that way. I want to say to you and the other women that have posted here Thank You.

by dora50 Feb 1, 2010 - 10:30 PM

Monica as I watched the last episode of "Still Standing" I could not believe that the record executives did not believe that "Still Standing" could be a single. You are truly talented and it is my belief that any song you select as your single will be a hit. But "Still Standing" has meaning and depth. It is not just words....it is an anthem...a theme song. The song speaks to everyone...male/female, black/white/asian/hispanic/indian/african...I really believe in you and your potential to continue to do well.
I have been a fan since 1995. You have never put out a "bad" album. I believe that your last album did not do as well because you did not have the support of your record company. They did not do anything to promote your album.

by IsJUSTICEblind Jan 28, 2010 - 5:43 PM

I am still standing after all the lies told to me self fulfilling prophesies spoke over me
Even the ones that were meant to scold me
Only turned me cold and early in my life I grew old you see
I am still standing because of the God Serve
Not the curse preserved for me
I’m still standing after the pain of allt he men having me
A marriage that damaged me and put
Me on the brink of insanity even though it ended sadly
But I am still standing because those that keep their Mind Stayed on Jesus will be kept in perfect peace
And my God believes in me no matter ho low I got he still came to get me
Like a knight in shining armor and I trapped in a tower of addiction he saved me

I am still standing admitting openly that I am a junkie, addicted to codeine and caffeine
Love starved and needy
Broken beyond belief but my God is repairing me
I am still standing because I need me
I am still standing because the God that started a good work in me is faithful to complete it see
Still standing is more than a physical posture still standing is a confession, a conviction still standing is not just physical but a mental disposition
Still standing is more than chords rehearsed over beats and a bomb verse
Still standing when I don’t have a dime in my purse
But even worse still standing because I will no longer nurse this pain, carry this guilt or hide this shame.
NO longer placing blame but take responsibility for the Part that my decisions played in my life.
Still standing after being let down repeatedly
But still standing in amazement at what my Choices cost my babies
Still standing after I put my faith, will and trust in a man who in the end abandoned me
Placed his hands around my neck to strangle me prove to the world that he had power over me and those this may seemed like a tragedy his need to dominate and destroy me was my welcome mat into creativity, freedom from the rule of him.
Still standing because I believe in God Solely holding onto him totally
Still standing to conceive the mystery and God’s gift for me
Still standing to receive the Victory
Still standing to relieve those who have prayed for me endlessly letting them know that I am not a lost cause
And at this moment I must pause and give thanks to the woman who made this worth it all and stood by my side rather I balled to I could fall
Or Give heed to Gods Call
Triumphing through football fields of mess coming out completely blessed no longer holding on to the stress and letting me know that I am the best….
I am still standing in this life through pain and strife, no wrong or right, just day and night , trusting in the Lord with all my Might I am still standing because MY God He made me all right……
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